Invisible

I take these pills to make me thin 

I dye my hair , and color my skin

I tried everything , to make them see me

But all they see , is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire

Even when i sat myself on fire 

Why do i always feel invisible 

Everyday i try to lock my past

Eventhough inside im such a mess

Why do i always feel invisible

Here inside , My quiet heart

You cannot hear , My cries for help

I tried everything , to make then see me

But everyone sees what i cant be

You Havent seen the last of me

Heart Broken , Eyes Swollen ...I've never had this bad feeling before.I've lost my voice .I want to express but i cant .There's no where i belong at this very moment . I need a shoulder to cry on but i don have .I need someone to talk it out but it ended up i don know what to say ,where to start ,and even SHOULD I TELL ? Annoying thoughts are messing like merry-go-round in my mind...I don know what to do and i hate being so emo now..Its just so not me but this post doesnt worth any 'lol or :D'

I know that i cant have anything and everything that i want but i try my best to get it...I've made my decision to want it so don be surprise to see what i'll do next .My heart has been tore apart ...usually it heals very fast and easily but this time is just not the same.