Invisible

I take these pills to make me thin 

I dye my hair , and color my skin

I tried everything , to make them see me

But all they see , is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire

Even when i sat myself on fire 

Why do i always feel invisible 

Everyday i try to lock my past

Eventhough inside im such a mess

Why do i always feel invisible

Here inside , My quiet heart

You cannot hear , My cries for help

I tried everything , to make then see me

But everyone sees what i cant be

You Havent seen the last of me

Heart Broken , Eyes Swollen ...I've never had this bad feeling before.I've lost my voice .I want to express but i cant .There's no where i belong at this very moment . I need a shoulder to cry on but i don have .I need someone to talk it out but it ended up i don know what to say ,where to start ,and even SHOULD I TELL ? Annoying thoughts are messing like merry-go-round in my mind...I don know what to do and i hate being so emo now..Its just so not me but this post doesnt worth any 'lol or :D'

I know that i cant have anything and everything that i want but i try my best to get it...I've made my decision to want it so don be surprise to see what i'll do next .My heart has been tore apart ...usually it heals very fast and easily but this time is just not the same.

  

Now I know

I know how to make kimchiiiiiii weeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahahahaha I've been loving to eat it since few years back ... Always thought that its hard to make so i prefer buying outside lol but Last Saturday,I just gave my very first try on making it and it turns out not bad :P just a wwwittle bit salty hahaha It was quite easy ... i did it according to a recipe i've got from Youtube lol so i was literally watching it while doing it ...Made a Havoc in my mom's kitchen but luckily my maid was there to help to clean up ....And felt thankful to get some help from my sis eventhough she went to tuition half way ..but still...THANKYOU :)

 

Heart to Heart

Hey yalll :D im back blogging ... but im sure no longer this blog will be dead again ... haha Well anyway , since not much of people will be visiting here so just let it die by itself laa LOL Sooo ... Yesterday's Frisbee session was terrific ! Especially when we get a bigger space to play and wouldnt get shoo-ed away by a bunch of old men. As usual,I suck really badly.I actually and secretly felt a little pitiful and very sorry to the group that has me in it LOL ...like seriously , i don help and instead , i make it worst. Im not a good runner , super blur and i REALLY do hate myself for getting a fidget very fast and couldnt calm myself down when i get the disc :S  

Planning to buy the Ultimate Tee since it looks very cool.Owh ! and FYI , WE played in the downpourrrrrrr WOOOO its fun fun fun and very cooling haha 

Anyway ... i was super free since the last school bell rang last friday ...but i didnt touch any of my homeworks LOL Lingered around my house touching everything i could but not my school bags hahha I think i better buck up now or imma get any scoldings in the following week... 

Kaythksbye :D 

You're My Honeystar

What The Freaking Hell Is Wrong With Me ?? I keep waking up late on Fridays ...which are the days that i have to reach school earlier than usual because i've to do the PA thingie for every week's assembly. My duties are to switch on some i-don-know-what machine and deal with the radios and mics 'which are very fragile and may betray u anytime'...Just like today ... The awesome radio wasnt working so we've to sing without music...and the best part is that it worked again after the assembly ==

  Anyway,today is another boring day of my life except for a few interesting stuffs happening around me .Such as ,our new perfectoria board (ignore the spelling) is out from today onwards and we'll be cooperating with a new bunch of Ajks weeeeeee :D  Anyway ,talked a lot with Sim today about some crazy stuffs in my life haha ! Enjoyed the fun really much ! THANKYOU FOR MAKING MY DAY ! and and I <3 YOU :D Because of you , i started to think differently and am more cautions bout things that may happen :) I FEEL SO HAPPY 

Random Facts bout me today lol 

• I've moved on 
• Currently obsessed with the song Forget you by Glee
• Im still lazy to do my homework
• I finished reading 'Can you keep a secret?' in a month .Which is a miracle lol
•  I get to skip my perfect duties for this whole entire month
• I LOVE HONEY STAR eventhough its fattenning
• After so many years,Icecream and cakes are still the best thing for me to kill my sadness :D 

Thats all of today ! Bye <3