Its the same in a different way

Christmas' Around The Corner ,Yooo !!!!

Its been a REAL long time since i last blogged. Actually I kept a few drafts for this blog during the starting of these holidays but, i was so lazy to continue half way through so i just abandon them as drafts. Hehe. Screwed mostly everything during the holidays and you'll not believe how lazy and lifeless am i now.  

I laze around my house touching everything except for the books when im bored. Watched a few dramas and stopped half way because i find them bad. Took utter loooong naps during the afternoon and felt super miserable when i cant sleep at night. Haha. Then I keep asking myself 

'Can i be anymore lifeless?' 

But But But ! Things are starting to change now ! heheee. Cause i started to watch 90210. The show is awesome moawesome! Moreover , The Indescribable Awesomeness Youth Camp is coming VERY SOON. Im so excited for it! I pray that everything will go smoothly and of course, we can be Crazier that last year. Haha .I hope that each and everyone of us will enjoy celebrating Jesus's Birthday. 

Went to youth just now and it was very fun! The sharing was amazing and the game is just so insane. Haha.Everyone's being paired up to dress like twins for the camp. Lots of funny things happened between us. Haha. Fortunately, we managed to get a conclusion lol. Best part is when Aunty Rachel was being asked by a little girl to be her twins and seriously, i think they have quite a lot of similarities. LOL And its funny when i ended feeling like a 'spare tyre' being pushed and pulled around. Not in a bad way though. Haha! and there goes the 'Awwwwwwwwwww Face' :3 hehehehe

I don't know what I'm going to dress up yet but I have a feeling that its going to be great! (Wait no, It MUST be great!) hahaha! 

Byeee ! ;D   

Invisible

I take these pills to make me thin 

I dye my hair , and color my skin

I tried everything , to make them see me

But all they see , is someone that's not me

Even when I'm walking on barb wire

Even when i sat myself on fire 

Why do i always feel invisible 

Everyday i try to lock my past

Eventhough inside im such a mess

Why do i always feel invisible

Here inside , My quiet heart

You cannot hear , My cries for help

I tried everything , to make then see me

But everyone sees what i cant be

You Havent seen the last of me

Heart Broken , Eyes Swollen ...I've never had this bad feeling before.I've lost my voice .I want to express but i cant .There's no where i belong at this very moment . I need a shoulder to cry on but i don have .I need someone to talk it out but it ended up i don know what to say ,where to start ,and even SHOULD I TELL ? Annoying thoughts are messing like merry-go-round in my mind...I don know what to do and i hate being so emo now..Its just so not me but this post doesnt worth any 'lol or :D'

I know that i cant have anything and everything that i want but i try my best to get it...I've made my decision to want it so don be surprise to see what i'll do next .My heart has been tore apart ...usually it heals very fast and easily but this time is just not the same.

  

Now I know

I know how to make kimchiiiiiii weeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahahahaha I've been loving to eat it since few years back ... Always thought that its hard to make so i prefer buying outside lol but Last Saturday,I just gave my very first try on making it and it turns out not bad :P just a wwwittle bit salty hahaha It was quite easy ... i did it according to a recipe i've got from Youtube lol so i was literally watching it while doing it ...Made a Havoc in my mom's kitchen but luckily my maid was there to help to clean up ....And felt thankful to get some help from my sis eventhough she went to tuition half way ..but still...THANKYOU :)

 

Heart to Heart

Hey yalll :D im back blogging ... but im sure no longer this blog will be dead again ... haha Well anyway , since not much of people will be visiting here so just let it die by itself laa LOL Sooo ... Yesterday's Frisbee session was terrific ! Especially when we get a bigger space to play and wouldnt get shoo-ed away by a bunch of old men. As usual,I suck really badly.I actually and secretly felt a little pitiful and very sorry to the group that has me in it LOL ...like seriously , i don help and instead , i make it worst. Im not a good runner , super blur and i REALLY do hate myself for getting a fidget very fast and couldnt calm myself down when i get the disc :S  

Planning to buy the Ultimate Tee since it looks very cool.Owh ! and FYI , WE played in the downpourrrrrrr WOOOO its fun fun fun and very cooling haha 

Anyway ... i was super free since the last school bell rang last friday ...but i didnt touch any of my homeworks LOL Lingered around my house touching everything i could but not my school bags hahha I think i better buck up now or imma get any scoldings in the following week... 

Kaythksbye :D 

You're My Honeystar

What The Freaking Hell Is Wrong With Me ?? I keep waking up late on Fridays ...which are the days that i have to reach school earlier than usual because i've to do the PA thingie for every week's assembly. My duties are to switch on some i-don-know-what machine and deal with the radios and mics 'which are very fragile and may betray u anytime'...Just like today ... The awesome radio wasnt working so we've to sing without music...and the best part is that it worked again after the assembly ==

  Anyway,today is another boring day of my life except for a few interesting stuffs happening around me .Such as ,our new perfectoria board (ignore the spelling) is out from today onwards and we'll be cooperating with a new bunch of Ajks weeeeeee :D  Anyway ,talked a lot with Sim today about some crazy stuffs in my life haha ! Enjoyed the fun really much ! THANKYOU FOR MAKING MY DAY ! and and I <3 YOU :D Because of you , i started to think differently and am more cautions bout things that may happen :) I FEEL SO HAPPY 

Random Facts bout me today lol 

• I've moved on 
• Currently obsessed with the song Forget you by Glee
• Im still lazy to do my homework
• I finished reading 'Can you keep a secret?' in a month .Which is a miracle lol
•  I get to skip my perfect duties for this whole entire month
• I LOVE HONEY STAR eventhough its fattenning
• After so many years,Icecream and cakes are still the best thing for me to kill my sadness :D 

Thats all of today ! Bye <3 

Thirtieh July , Two Thousand Eleven

    Felt so empty today ...somehow i feel something is missing and im trying very hard to think of what is it...Wanted to go for Frisbee session but all of my friends said that they're not going ...haixxx :(.... Anyway , surprisingly I woke up early today , at 8.45 ... cause usually i'll be waking up at 11 or 12 haha ...Had 'Ho Fan Soup' as my breakfast and then did a few add maths questions before the clock struck to 12 and got a phone call from my mom ... She wants to bring me to a saloon to have a hair cut ... So i just followed since there's nothing i feel like doing at all for the mean time ....

     When we reached there , my grandma started to talk to the barber in Hakka and they laughed really hard ... I was smiling like an idiot with my blanked face since i don get a single clue of what are they talking about lol While he was cutting my hair , i keep telling him not to cut too short but my grandma keep asking him to cut as much as he could until my mom came into the saloon from the car park and tell my grandma that i look better with long hair haha 
    
      After that,i went to a badminton court which is right opposite of the saloon .Had fun playing with Esther , Alethia , Ai Ni , Amen ,Pei Jing ,Desmond , Aaron and Kai Xin :) Maybe because its been a while since i've ever exercised ,my right hand felt very tired after playing for only 10 minutes with Alethia ,Amen and Ai ni .... so i suggested everyone to play with left hand except for Ai ni cause she's left handed...haha  
       We sucked really badly and i regretted for coming up with such stupid idea haha Desmond and Aaron arrived after a few minutes ... then we start to play until 3 ... We had our meal at 7 wonders after that ... I ordered 'Zha Geong' Ramen without drinks .The serving is very big and quit spicy ...moreover ,im running out of water ...so I was literally forcing myself to swallow all of it into my stomach ...then Ai ni then gave me her 100 plus <3 

     My mom came and brought me back later...half way through our 'journey' home only i'd realize that Aaron's car key was still in my bag ... Haha then There goes a u-turn back to the restaurant lol felt so embarrassed for being such a forgetful person ... I guess i'll not give any ending to this post cause today is not over yet haha 

Kaythksbye :) 

You know you hate me

Why are you doing this to me ?

Why am i not sad at all ?

What should i actually feel right now ?

Why are bad things keep happening on me ?

Why don i like it ?

Why should i care ?

How can i forget you ?

How can i survive for long?

What should i do next ?

Why am i scared ?

Why don i have anything to say or comment ? 

Why am i asking why ?

Why do i wanna know ? 

Because i care about you ??? :O 

NO WAY 

WHY WHY WHY WHY ????

Depression rules

Can 'In the midst of Fakeness' describe my current situation ? Its just like living on a battle ground... where everyone is the soldier and the leader of the war is no one...which means the war is meaningless and fighting is just to entertain themselves ... most of them wears a mask to protect themselves but harm the others that do not have one 

Some of them are good enough to render you to take off your mask and promise to protect you but in the end...they'll slap you in the face ...because promises are one of their weapon ...they fire the weapon by breaking the promise .. which will make you feeling miserable and thinking life is unfair and mean ...

For now..i just feel like take off my mask , throwing my weapon away ,let go everything and just die on the battle ground with dignity ... 

Boredom

 

Im so bored now... nothing to do after the exams... haha this week can be consider  a sport week for my school.... Sukan Tara starts today and end by Thursday ... Hopefully yellow house get to win this year again ... :) Ran for 100m and did long jump today ... i felt quite happy even though i only contributed 1 mark in the 100 meters run cause im not a runner and i hardly get a marks for runner since form 1...lol Long jump was as usual... i've got 2 marks for it ... Now my leg muscles are utterly in pain  and could hardly walk.. i wonder how am i going to survive for lontar peluru and maybe high jump... Wish me lucks ! :D And these are the photos taking during a small errand to the Broga Hill ...super exhausted climbing up the hil :P   

CELEBRATION

MY FORM 4 MID YEAR EXAM IS OFFICIALLY OVER !!!!!!

I've no idea how i did it but all i can say is ...i've done my best :D Holiday will be here in a week time ... So excited that i don know what to do.. haha i've actually planned a few things but guess what ? i've forgotten half of the things that i've planned LOL all i can remember is...

• Finish reading my storybook
• watch some korean drama
• brush up my piano skills ? haha
• and .....i forget :P

Owh yeah ! Yesterday was Alethia's  Sweet Sixteen ! since its 12.45 am now ...I was being a wonderful friend that i didnt realize its her birthday ... haha ! I met her for a few times in school and waved without wishing her...the guiltiness is filling the air now...lol HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALETHIA !!! hope you wont be mad at me :'( Had a karaoke session just now...we were singing so madly and got recorded by Guang Yao == 

hahaha so, guang yao, you better keep your phone tight or imma kidnap it in any seconds from now on :P 

 Toodles :D

Situations

Yeap ... since when i was form 1 or 2 ,i enjoy giving situations for my friends to choose when im bored in school :P Since im lazy to study for my physic test tmr ..i've decided to so this :D

Situation 1 ....Choose either A or B and it would be best if you could tell me why ... haha

A . You'll be married to a rich guy that is just a few years older than you . Your marriage stayed for 10 years.But he don love you as much as he love his second and third wife and he treated you coldly and even your child everyday.

B . You'll be married to a rich guy that is 10 or more years older than you .He have 2 wifes and a few children .You'll be his thrid wife but he loves you a lot and treated you very well by buying expensive goods for you all the time and love you very much .

Which one would you choose if you have no other choice but the marry one of them :P 

Formspring

Just activated an account of mine in Formspring which was created long time ago and was abandoned and untouched for a super long time...find it kinda interesting these few days :D Sooooo...Dont be shy and ask me anything there ... hahaha this is my url

http://www.formspring.me/SooChin

Such A Precious Miracle

Guess whattttt ???

JUSTIN BIEBER's Concert is Tomorrow!!!

Haha ! Its really a miracle for me to get the tickets ...I seriously thought that its impossible for me to get it and I felt super envious towards my friend ,Ateng as she got 2 free 300++ tickets by singing pray on Hitz.fm AND

 2 free 200++ tickets from a facebook contest .... Awesome much right ? haha

I tried before to bug her to join another contest to win the tickets for me haha ! it actually was just for fun cause i thought its impossible for me to get the tickets ... and who knows ? a few days afterward i saw her tweet bout she's selling her ticket and of course ,i tweeted her that i want the tickets and thats how i get my tickets !

Thankyou Ateng !!! <3

Although exam is near ,Im so excited now that i don even have the mood to finish my homework since im going to skip the last two periods of my school ...haha ! instead , i was downloading the songs ,tweeted like ever and planning what should i bring , wear and prepare for tomorrow  hahaha !

Dear Justin Bieber , See you Tomorrow !!! :P

Can I ?

I understand that humans are not perfect .We make wrong decisions at times and wish to go back in time ... Its not easy to be done since its definitely an impossible task ... According to what i've learnt in my sixteen years and four months experience is that We need to learn to forgive and forget ... Its really easy to say but hard to do... Cause as i've said , Humans are not perfect .Some people choose to forgive and forget , but some choose to forget but not forgive .And there goes the birth of the word 'enemies'

I'd agree that i used to be the kind of people that forgets but not forgive ... so now here i am to change after getting a few inspirations from the movie 127 Hours and also my beloved KAOG Refuge :) 

Its Hard But I'll Try My Best

*But as you know, i need some time* haha 

I Closed My Eyes

I give up on everything now.... Do what ever you like and i now had found the steps that i need to take to leave this utter mess ... I don wish for anything as long as my life is not miserable and meaningless 

KayThatsAllForNowBye :) 

Lacuna !

Went to Singapore right on the second day of Chinese New Year...Dont really feel good as i couldnt get more angpaos but the trip was not to said bad but its really unparalleled :) My family and I went they by 2 cars of ours with a journey that took us 6 hours ... 

 

This is the 1st picture i took right after i reach there 

 

in our hotel , Hotel Furama Frontview 

 

Went to grab our lunch after checked in but most of the restaurants nearby was closed , So we had Mcd in a shopping complex instead . Went to Little India afterward and what i perceived was it's full of peoples packing like salads in the shops! Therefore ,we left after walking for a while over there for our hotel since my brothers were so excited to jump into the swimming pool whereas ,My sis and i cam whored in the room :P

 

 

At night my parents,grandma ,aunty and uncle went for gambling so i'm asked to babysit the kids and my premonitions was proofed to be wrong cause it was not hard after all to take care of them :P

On the next day , we went to the UNIVERSAL STUDIO instead of SENTOSA ISLAND ...We woke up super early just because we didnt wanna take the long queue ... and the first thing i did was riding the highest ride over there with my grandma... YES MY 65 YEARS OLD GRANDMA TOOK THE HIGHEST RIDE WITH ME,MY SIS AND MY COUSIN BRO !!! There goes our conversation...

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ME / GRANDMA /MY SIS /MOM

Come ! lets that the ride !

im scared :(

Theres nothing to be scared one la...come with me !

ooookk *reluctantly*

I ALSO WANNA GO

*stares at grandma*

WHAT ? PO ! are u serious ?

YES ! i wan to go la....i can one 

You have high blood preasure !

a little bit only its ok one la...come come *pulls my hand and walk in the ride* 

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And she at last came out of the ride save and sound ...All kinds of feelings were mixed up in my heart ... i was nervous-scared-worried-afraid ...She didnt scream at all during the ride ....she told me that she's afraid her teeth would drop out... haha But all the feelings were gone after the ride :D 

  I LOVE MY GRANDMA !!

    

 

 During the last day of the trip , we went to the tower-that-i-don-know-what-its-name ...haha had a ride on the world's fastest elevator and saw the most unique swimming pool in my life :) Everthing over there was amazing including the price.. haha too some pictures and there we put a fullstop on our trip to Singapore :D  

Victorious

Tori / Audre

Where are you ?
Im in my grandma house 

Why are you over there ?
My grandma wants me
Why ? What's wrong with her ? 

My grandma say she's very scared looking at the numbers of her digital clocks moves every seconds

=.= i see...

                                        

                                                                                               

Detest Penitence

Regretting for not doing some things that doesnt give a second chance is frustrating and abominable ... sometimes i feel like inventing a time machine to go back in time and change my mistakes ...

But i cant

Neglect The Resentment

Helloooooooo ... its been an utter long time since my last post...i bet Alethia would hate me for making the post of her in the front page of my blog for such a long time ... :P sorryyyyyyyy !! :D Now..here i am ,once again , reblog-ing !! haha school's been really busy nowadays... First term exam just past and plus , its really hard to carry my heavy butt to realive my dead blog since im now indulged to watch korean dramas again ! haha its pretty awesome to watch all the episodes back to back :) Planned to post about my CNY trip to Singapore earlier actually but now I've decided to do it during my March holidays ... Days have been quite dreary and haggarded ... hopefully my marks wouldnt be swimming colours *opposite of flying colours ;own creation of words* :P Toodles ! 

They Looked Alike !

Do you think they look alike ??  I just only discovered another twin for Alethia while watching a drama of this guy ... hahha i saw her blog post and i think this guy look more like her la .... and since im stuck in this boredom ... so i decided to blog about this :D 

Hope u like it , Alethia :D 

Unforgettable Love

Happy Birthday , Grandpa ! I miss you so much that nothing is possible to overtake it .... Time really flies... You've left all of us for more then 2 years ... but now , i actually still can't accept the truth that you've left us and no longer be with me ... I had a nostalgia today about me asking you to stop smoking and you'll be like...

"ok ok ok! i'll stop now ...haha*big smile* you are really naughty girl ...im sure next time your husband must be totally controlled by you" 

And the last time i saw you in the Hospital ... You just woke up in the ICU and you look at me with a your big eyes ... I gave you the newspaper and you told me that you remember i only read the entertainment part of the newspaper...

I seriously regretted for losing my phone and now i don have any of ur pictures with me ... I hate myself for being so reckless ...Im so sorry ... and i'll never forgive myself for it

The day you left , i actually heard my mom's phone call from the hospital when i was in my room and i know that something's happenning ...I hate myself for not following her or even ask her what happened... i regretted for going to school to attend the sports day and i missed my last chance to see you ... Dad came to school and ask me to leave immediately ... I've no idea what happenned until he told me in the car ... i broke down and cried really hard

Im really sorry for not listening your advise that you told me before you leave and i promise i'll never do that again ... I'll miss you and i'lll never ever forget all the memories you gave me in those 14 years ... I love you , grandpa and i always do

As Ever by A.N.JELL

Finally ! i get to blog !! haha Ever since school reopened , my time are ALL occupied and i don even have time to do my homeworks ... so nowadays, i started to defer my homeworks until the day before the subject ...I know its bad but honestly from the bottom of my heart ,what else can i do ? i cant make the day have more then 24 hours ! and i cant slow down the time too ... so thats the ONLY way to survive in my situation now :D i couldnt risk to simply do my homeworks fast ! haha cause i'll definitely gone astray and do the wrong thing ! trust me! i've experienced it quite some time ...haha Sometimes , i'll stop myself from my supernova-large-amount-of-homeworks and ponder; what will happen if i didnt choose to stay ? will i be in this situation too ? But , time didnt allow me to think further and im forced to continue my work...Anyway , actually i was supposed to post a lot of pictures here but thanks to my internet connection , i cant upload ANY of it ; which annoys me to the max ==

Alright let me tell you about this KOREAN DRAMA that recently im addicted ! *my sis was addicted too* :P Its called "YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL !!"

 

 

 LISTEN TO THE SONG !! Im sure you'll love it !

Its a VERY AWESOME DRAMA !!! Its very funny and of course one of my reason to watch it is because of handsome guys There songs are very awesome ! it makes me wanna listen to it over and over again until my ipod touch is damage ! HAHAHA to everyone that havent watch it yet , WATCH IT AS SOON AS POSSIBLE and to the people that've watched it ... Congrats ! you're as lifeless as me ! hahaha Thats all for now ... BYE